My Birthday Wishlist

Everyboyd is always like what do you want what do you want WHAT DO YOU WANT.. and then they get me shit I really dont want... so, Here you go.. better tell people what you'd like then get shit on the 1 day of the year thats all-about-you.. not Careline just because she was born on the same day!! but m-e-!

1. Shoes.. I have been dying for a new pair of high heels or boots sooo bad.. "good" ones!

2. Ipod Nano - Not a need... but I can defenately think of it as a want..

3. Hair curler/crinkler

4. Straightner - Anyone who has used mine will agree I need a new one.

5. BasketBall Hoop.. those ones that attatch to a long pole not the ones that you nail on the wall.. (But I think my grandmoms already getting me that!!! :-D with a ball... duh!)

6. Red Dress from MCL - its for about $60 there... oh my god - so absalutly gorgeous! And I want it before MG goes and buys it!!! :-)

7. New bag - I had the coolest one.. Mum took it with her :'(

8. Has anyone ever seen a big piglet or lala from tellitubbies? Ok so I know Im turning SEVENTEEN but how damn cute r those teddybears??? Iv only ever seen them on TV... lol never found them in a store.. Either way, any big cuddely teddybear themselves are cute as..

9. Take me Shopping - Now thats a fun birthday Gift..!

10. I so need new jewellery... lol *hint*hint*nudge*nudge*Diva*cough* Oh and I really need a cool watch, I dont have any! You wouldnt want me to be late... would you?

11. Jewellery box.. I mean, where else are you meant to keep it all?

12. I need a good chair.. my brothers got a great one in his room, mine's shit.

13. An evening gown - ...ok... I'll leave that there before I end up in a dream world, describing how badly I want a nice long silky beautiful dress :-)

14. Cash - Im saving up...!! Loads and loads will do :-) really! Dont hesitate! I guess money is the easist thing you can give without thinking too much for a gift.. and it's always very very welcome too lol

15. A new job :-( A good one..

16. A stitching machine.. I really need one..

17. Alot of cool DVD's and Movies!.. or just a life size SRK poster :-)

18. New phone - I've had this too long and its been passed down to me after 20 other people..hell, they dont even make this model anymore!

19. I wish I had almost every colour nail polish - lol.. weird huh? But Iv always wanted loads of them!

20. The necklace stand Karina got Renata for her birthday... I think it was around $25 or so.. The figure one - so damn cool..

Now, because this is a 'wish list'... Im going to put in things people cant exactely buy me on my 17th lol unless Iv got someone like the hiltons coming to celebrate it for me.. but hey, wouldnt hurt! :P

21. A car.. A small car.. But a car..

22. A digital Camera for myself!

21. Admition into NIFT - HA-HA

22. A puppy! :-(

23. A Lapton/new computer... geez, I still have Windows 98 and Im always out of space!

24. An around the world ticket! Hmm.. or just anywhere outside adelaide - hey, is it so bad I want to go away for a few days? :-)

25. A relaxing day.. with alot of massages and pedicure n manicure and alot of pampering (that I absalutly deserve) in a nice place.. You know, Im a girl after all... and how perfect would that day be..

26. Somebody here in july.. before august..

Keep reading, for more :P lol god Im a greedy needy girl :-) but... I can be... right?? Its my... MY Birthday!!!! :-(

Sargam

I just want to say... Sargam turned out good.. apart from Sawan absalutly ruining most of it for me :P and me having my 1st fight with my best friend :-(... my dance was good.. with a few screw ups here and there and almost tripping..

Akriti cheered for me which really gave me courage... so thankyou so much Akriti if you ever come across this blog.. and to everyone who whisteled and clapped along...

lol thanks to Sawan (NOT) for making me so nervous and telling me I'll fall..

and thankyou MG, for being there and helping me like you always do and I hope we alwas stay best friends because I could never ever find a friend more amazing then you. Like i always say, your god sent because whenever Im with you I have the best time and no one wud ever replace you.. cause I can forget absalutly anything in ur company.. all the bad things.. and we have the best time..! [I hope things go back to that soon.. :-( ] ...

and well, thankyou to someone who tries his best to always be there for his friends, and someone I really hope I get to know better in the near future... who happens to be the guy who says he always tries and comment on my blog... so I shouldnt stop writting :P.. you dont come across such amazing friends everyday for sure, and... Im glad I met you!... so.. so very glad that I made a friend like you.. and I hope it works out which it might not knowing me.. but I want it to..! Which by the way is Grishm... and really, the few days before my dance and on that day - He was just so amazing and understanding about it!

Thankyou soooo much to Renata for coming.. I still wish you could have stayed.. I felt horrible.. but Im glad you were there... it was the sweetest gesture ever!

last but not least, Saloni part 2 :-D hehe.. for putting up with me when I wouldnt get the few MANY steps :-) .. and for eating away neutrella all evening and drinking soft drinks and not practising atall!

This saturday, Saloni and I have been asked to dance on the same song again, at the festival theatre, which happens to be a massive place.. their having a bollywood party there, the tickets are $85 and Saloni and I cant believe we'd be there on stage...because I know i'll muck up :-D again! I cancelled my beach house plans for that weekend though... so it better turn out good..! I certanly think thats a good news! :-)

Talk about changing topics from one thing to the other - Goodnight, thankyou for reading! ( And for leaving a comment :-D...)

"I want it" fullstop...or is it?

Its been so long since I wrote... so many things have happened but I've just stopped writting about them.. even good new's! I dont even talk about those or my thoughts.. Just havnt wanted to write for so long.. everytime im in a mood something happens.. everytime I feel like this will be fun to write about..suddenly something goes wrong.. usualy, something bad goes wrong.. today, something good went wrong.. if you know what I mean! But I need to write.. and personaly, Id rather people didnt read this one.. but I cant write and not show it - Its such a Tina thing to do... when I write something, I write it for a reason - because I want people to read it - even people that I dont want knowing it.. anyway,

Even though I know most of us have felt this... I'll ask anyway, because asking is always the easier way to start off talking about it isnt it? I think so.. so, have you ever wanted something alot but not sure if its right? Think of it this way, when you have a bad throat, some say you should eat ice cream... some say you shouldnt.. now either you could end up feeling fine after it - or it could just get worst... and, even tho you really want to have ice cream and try it... you dont want to risk not having ice cream for a really long time because you might fall really sick after it..

Hmm. why do i feel like iv made everyone feel like ice cream now? I bet your thinking of the ice cream part and are compleatly off the real point... its not about an ice cream or a chocolate or a thing.. its about wanting something.. it could be a person, a thing, a relationship, something materialistic.. something good something bad.. just wants.. and dont you just wish it would end there... 'i want this'... and thats it, you wouldnt have to think further.. but unfortunately you do.. you have to wonder what the out come of it would be.. what could go wrong.. you might end up loosing something you really were enjoying or something you love by not giving it a thought before you act... so many complications.. so many that you just want to block it all out and ignore the thought.

Its happening here.. lets just say... I dont want to have an ice cream because I dont want to risk falling so sick that I might not be able to have it for a long time... and as everyone knows, me and self control are such a no-no. I always.. always do what I shouldnt... this time, Im trying my best. I dont want to ... do anything wrong.. and I dont want to lose something good just because I'm too immature.. and neither do I want to get hurt... atall.. I just dont want to be hurt all over again.. because at some point you just need a break and you dont want the same person or another person or a friend a relative or a stranger.. you dont want to get too close to anyone.. and u dont want to risk getting hurt.. and there is always the fact that you just cant always have what you want.. you've got to think of what might happen.. and do you really want to risk everything else around for something...? God, I wish I could stop thinking for just one day!

I know some of you will be like.. "so do i".. but no, I really do think too much.. and anyone who knows me well or has read my blog entries will realise that!

But I had to write about that... I just felt so confused and I dont want anything to change at all.. and yet I do.. Iv been told that I should leave it the way it is.. because it is fine right now..its the way it should be and its the right way to be and if i try and change that it would not help anyone... and at the same time I KNOW no one wants things to change for worst and I know its just a stupid thing to think of... hence I will shut up and stop writting about it for now, and... and do something else! Not so sure what.. whatever comes 1st.. I also know everyone who reads this will think something compleatly else of it... except for maybe one person who might just know..

But I think its time for tina to stop writting so tina can go do something different before she is driven insane! And its the last thing I want to do after having the most amazing walk ever.. Iv never been on such a..comfortable funny nice 'secreative' scary fun unsure walk ever! Its like when everything is perfect. the company the place the timing and... well, sort of the weather too.. so yes, No more about that.. or this..

Tina