Claire..

Claire.. she's amazing. she's a sweetheart.. she's nice and sweet and so damn beautiful that those things you see in movies, would really happen to her. when she walked into a room, every person would stop and turn around to look at her. even the girls.. she was so beautiful. and she could walk in a party and make a million friends before you can even notice who she is.. she had a beautiful heart with perfect looks. She was really funny too.. she IS really funny.. she'd crack the lamest jokes, and everyone would laugh, only because when she laughed it made you want to try it too, because it seemed such a great feeling on her.. she made a few mistakes in life, did stupid things, had people ruin her days... just like any other person but at the end of the day, when everything was over, id never seen any girl stand out like she did.. and she was.. always.. always there for anyone who needed her.. thats just a little bit about our claire.. just a little tiny bit about who she was.. not to forget she loved modelling for the camera.. and she did it perfectly too and.. she.. she loved.. kids..

and i really miss her

what happend to the life long vows?

is it some kind ov joke to you? to everybody? i mean, i dont get it... i never did. 1st of all, i do not like marriages, and i dont believe in them, but sure when i say this to someone i get "your still young. i thought the same when i was your age..." but for fock sakes, i mean it. i've seen too many break in the past 16 years to want to ... like them. and then theres the fact that i do NOT think it is important for 2 people, to be 'officialy' together. i mean, why should i have a piece of paper tell me i am now officially in love with a person? when now, the same damn peice of papaer can tell me i am now legally never allowed to be with them again! what kind of... law is that? how does a man sitting in a black coat with white fake focking hair get to decide if i should be with the guy i love or not? what does he know about us? how LONG has he known us? what gives him the rights?

anyway... im a little enthusiastic about this matter. because there are just so many things i do not get.i use to think, how the hell can you spend ur life with ONE person.. then i thought... thats very subjective.. maybe there is a word called love somewhere out there... and it makez people wanna do syco things like marry! but... people change after marriage... and i think thats really sad. a sad truth about life. knowing you have something, somehow means you just end up taking it forgranted... take this for an example.. its not a great one.. but it is one that would effect me!

your.. dating a guy.. he blows u off 3 times in a row, for dinner, and after planning everything.. but its very 'important' things he's blowing u off for.. or say, he just.. goes like a week/2 without telling you he loves you.. do you not think, that the guy would be a little scared that things between you are going edgy and if u got annoyed you could want a 'break' because of his behaviour? well... now, think of those things in a marriage. geez do u think he will EVER think u'll divorce him for them?! no.. so, he takes it forgranted.. and mind i say, im not just picking on men here... although, i wouldnt mind i mean i have alot to say but thats not what this is about... it goes for women too!

i just think that... inspite of everything else.. if people could just pay attention on eacho ther rather then what others may say or what is 'the right thing to do'.. they would be happier.. it isnt always just black and white. theres more to it... and, marriages meant something in the old days when people really did love each other and stay together... it was.. meaningful, sure it had its big disadvantages but, it was still a marriage, today its just a joke. you can get a divorce faster then you get married, and you dont even have to make up bloody vows! what is.. all that? i mean, am i the only one that find it sad? im not disgusted or just appauled but i do, i really do think its sad.

Lets talk about Sex

Men can REALLY get to you sometimes. Specially when it comes to having to go to far.. sometimes you just make the wrong choices, because you dont have another choice if you want to live happily! I never thought I would say this... ever... because I have always been the confident girl who doesnt dress to impress others, and I defenately think peer pressure is for weak people! I mean, If your confident enough to believe in yourself, there would be no 'peer pressure'!

But then things changed when i met a guy.. I wont say any names... he's my friends boyfriend. and the girl is so.. pressured! I mean I dint think things would ever get that bad. When you love someone, i agree "sex is a beautiful thing in a beautiful pure relation yada yada yada" but hey, how about WAITING till the poor girl is READY for it! No ones saying its a wrong thing but your meant to give someone the time... and not pressure them into having sex with you. pressure isnt always raping someone now is it. its about... getting her into the moment of time even though you know she doesnt want it just yet.

I know it sounds crazy, coz if a guy doesnt respect the fact that your just not ready, you should leave him but... sometimes its not as easy as it sounds. thats why we call it 'love' coz its crazy.. and it CHOOSES to be blind. and personally, i feel for her.. so much. Because its very unfair that she wants to be with him, and maybe he wants the same but if he doesnt realize she needs time, then he doesnt deserve it.. but if i were her, i probablly would find it hard to leave someone too.. speically if i loved them. I probablly wouldnt go as far to doing something Im not ready to do, but.. yeah id let the whole thing get to me and ruin my mood.

I think people who read this blog, should defenatly realise that a girl has the right to take her time.. so does a guy. and if your prioritys are different then just dont be together because it is compleatly unfair to be forced into having your 1st time.. because that memory lives forever.

So guys, please, think before you act!

and can i please add, if your both ready, (which is great!!!) will people just start bloody using Protection?! we know how beautiful it is to have that connection with someone but if you want to be able to have it again without getting a desiese or a damn life in ur stomach, use a damn condom.

Shotgun Models!

Last night I was lying in bed, when suddenly a thought came to my mind... well, to be honest it wasnt my thought, it was an advice i got from someone, someone with alot of experiance.. and i decided, seeing i want to be a designer, I dont want to be in hollywood.. or Bollywood.. I want to have my own label, my own deisngs and .. be someone. Then depending on everything else, I could deisgn for Spesific people.. and thats when I realised.. that if i were looking for someone to design my clothes, or a new young designer in the Industry... it would all depend on HOW they present their Stuff.. right? I mean, when you look at clothes, do the ones on Maniquens catch your eye 1st or the ones hanging on a hanger? You know the answer. So to get to where I want to be, Id need... models! People who know how to carry themselfs.. and I would have to design things and get them made, and then get .. someone to model them, like photos.. and have them in my portfolio! And... then I put alot of thoughts into it, and came up with such an awesom idea! I already have the people i want in my designs! (I wouldnt get them to do it for free though, just wouldnt feel right...) I dont want to have pro. Models or famous faces. For guys, I want Om (Do i really need an introduction for him? lol Like everyone doesnt already know who he is! He's hot. He'd be just so perfect for it! and he has style!) so thats number 1.. hopefully, he wont mind! and Number 2. Deepak! Now.. alot of you's have no idea.. he's from The Merchants of Bollywood.. Uday? yeah yeah, I can picture alot of girls going 'aaah.. i see where your going...' lol.. havnt asked him yet either but oh please, the boy loves photos. he couldnt deny it! Plus, maybe I could make him wear higher pants that way =D so I shotgun them 2 for my Male models...

and for Female.. well, This isnt because she is my bestfriend, but it's because she has a hot body too! and she's a pritty face (lol, sorry MG..) I've already got her to model for my IB project, and I think people loved it! and the other girl.. well i havnt thought of one yet, i need someone who's perfect. and no, I dont mean personality! lol but umm.. I could do with no-blonds.
But if someone can think of a girl, let me know! =-) and remember, no celebraties or Pro's!

Honestly, Im already soo excited!!!! =D

P.S. just so you know.. this is ALL copyright stuff! Dont steal my idea!