The Life You Take Away

So we all have a bad day, everyone ones thinks to self, even death would work better. But think again, would it really? would you really rather die? It isnt about your family or friends or beloved, they'll move on some day, but thats it. the end. thats all there is for you..

Have you ever wondered, can you even imagine the amount of pain a person would have been through to be able to hang yourself to death? can you just imagine how they must be feeling... there is feeling pain, and then there is taking action towards it. Or imagine walking in on your brother, dead. Imagine waking up a morning only to find out your friend just hung himself. your son is dead.

Its this awkward feeling, when your walking down the hall of your school looking at people. there are those who are upset and crying, and then those that are hearless enough to make fun of them. Then theres those who didnt know the guy, but still feel bad. do you talk to someone? do u console them? do you just walk away...?

Its just impossible to look around and see all those places where you saw him. his friends. Like you just saw him last week so how could it be... you just never saw it coming... should you just leave everyone alone or be with them? why did it have to happen? so many questions left unanswered. It makes you want to just drop down and sit there... sit there for ever. While at the same time, you dont ever want to be mean to a person, you want to call everyone you know and say Hi.. ask them to take care..

He wont ever come back. People will move on, they cry, then they get over it. if not now, then later. Everyone will have a life, a partner a job a family... but what about his life, his partner, his job... his family... what about Him.. is that the end? will he never get to see tomorrow? thats a bit unfair, dont you think? Why couldnt he talk to someone... was he really going through something so painful, painful enough to end it forever? To do something like that, you'd have to be feeling really strongly about things.

You just wish someone would have said something, consoled him at the right time.. what do you do? do you just move on with life, knowing that someone is gone forever? and they wont be back.. not in 20 years, not in 50, not in 100 not ever. Someone so talanted, so amazing... how do you stop yourself from seeing him everywhere? how do you look at places he would be at, and not still picture him there? Why do i feel like this week only gets worst.

2 In a row, if only someone could promise you those would be the last 2 people. Would that mean you'd feel any better? would you forget about them? why cant we have a back up life, incase we change our mind. Everybody makes a mistake, if "god" is our "father"... why not forgive the mistake...

Will you forget tomorrow, and move on? have you ever? Will I, will we? Will they? As much as it affected so many lifes, yet, it hasnt affected much at all. We still have a world, school's still open, assigments are still due, people still eat and breath, it still rains and the sun still shines. why? how could it? Didnt he mean anything?..

.. I wish I knew.. I wish someone had stopped him.. I wish they'd lived.. I wish many wishes to save him and wish him to be okay. If only our wishes came true, Id wish for never another bird to fall.. not now, not ever. Not because you ran out of clouds you enjoy flying through..