B-u-l-l-s-h-i-t-!

This will hopefully be my last blog till after the exams.. unless i go off my timetable and have another stupid fit and have an urge to write.. lets hope not. But I'm sure thousands of you people who dont even read or comment on my blog dont really.. care... oh how say Dont even give a shit =-)

I was in English today, and something happened.. well alot happend, i had a fight with my teacher and told him shit and argued and then ended up in tears and made sure no one noticed but they did! anyway.. thats not the something.. the something is when My teacher got really pissed off because everyone came in too late.. not a morning person ey! And usualy he doesnt scream.. well iv never heard his voice high. only angry, not screamy. Not an emo person either!

He said to the other kids that were late.. "You see a nice person.. and you exploid them.. you notice their nice and they dont like too much conflict or tention.. so you take advantage of that and you mis-use their personality to your advantage... and when they do get fed up and let it all out and get frustrated and tell you how they feel... you go, ooo their so nasty ooh what a stuck up person look at that attitude my god what a bitch.. or' oh somebody is having mood swings.. yeah someonez had a tough day, oh how selfish... well guess what... B-u-l-l-s-h-i-t-! Dont you dare give me that crap. Im in the mood YOU put me in..."

and Im sitting there thinking... wow... talk about you just spoke my mind! Iv been feeling that way but i didnt know how to explain it.. I didnt have the words and i so desperatly needed an answer that i started blaming myself, and thinking I do have mood swings and im nasty and im a bitch... but Im over that. because i so get what he means.. its just.. so true.. like when your sweet.. and then suddenly when your angry and bitchy, people... god they gossip and they'll say all this shit to you and how your unfair... well, ur in the mood THEY put you in! No one has a right to mis-use what you let them have like that.. such as ur trust and your loyalty. Its not fair is it?

So even though I dont really like him, because I think he can be.. a bit selfish at times.. like he's seen so much in life that your problems mean shit to him and thats the part i dont like... and i guess he's an english teacher.. one that lives in an illsion of his life. all the things about his life sound so out there made up.. I guess what he said today really made sence and got to me... and i had to write on it.. oh and another thing he said -

Big brother is L-A-M-E.

Cheers